L.O.V.E

Love knows no limit to its endurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope; it can outlast anything. Love still stands when all else has fallen

I had an interesting experience on the weekend. My Fiancee's mum explained what 'faith' and being Catholic meant to her. Love. The love that she has for her children, her husband. The love she sees between myself and her son. The love for her parents. The love for everyone around her. This is what it means to be Catholic to her.

I start with this because firstly, I'm not Catholic. I'm Anglican. This whole conversation was sparked when discussion of 'potential' children arose in an afternoon chat after the races. Now, let's get one thing straight...at this stage in my life, I'm still discovering who I am, let alone who my children would be. But nonetheless, hearing this made me realise that without Love, the last few years of my life would have spiralled into a black hole. It was love that brought me out of that and to be the person I am today. And whilst I'm not saying that I'm wholly religious - in fact - I attend Church once a year if that - but if Love it what it means to follow religion, then I guess I do. Because I've learnt how to trust. That people make mistakes. And that above anything...I've learnt how to love, and that if we fill our hearts with it...we can become whole.

I guess for you to understand where I am, and where I'm going...the person that I was, I am, and that I'm hoping to be, it is important to explain how I've ended up here. I need somewhere to express myself, where I'm not judged, and where I can tell my story from the bottom of my heart in all its sadness, happiness and pride - and where I can just be 'me' - a person who I thought a long time ago that I'd lost.

 This photo is of me at the Races in October 2010 - I've maintained my weight since then. I still have 15kgs to lose to be where I want to be for my wedding.

To  become the 'real' me, I still have a long way to go with my weight loss. But I'm getting there. And I'm willing to do what I need to to make sure I do.

Happiness & Beauty is both inside and out. You can't have one without the other.